Broken Mirrors

Real friends always have the ability to call you on your
BullShit, when you need a sit your ass down moment.  That is what happened to me today. I was
complaining about a problem I have been having lately.  After I got over my ego being bruised I realized
that I needed to step up more and take more responsibility for my actions.  I have been working on this more and more,
but my conversation made me see how much work I have yet to do, its funny cause
I had pretty much already come to the same conclusion a few days ago, but it
was just having my shit called out made me mad and then I directly my anger at
the true target, myself.  I have so much more
to learn about things going on around me and the things going on within
me.    

 

I have to deal with these pesky demons that plague me, and
try to put my broken life back together. 
I guess hiding in the gym everyday doesn’t really cover it either, can’t
build anything on a faulty foundation. So I struggle on trying to find the real
me inside this house of cards that I have become.  I hope all that matter can bear with me till I
get my shit together.

 

I know I am not perfect; I am stubborn, arrogant, and just
all too full of myself.  I am pretty much
what I am I needed to be to get alone in this world, but that doesn’t excuse my
sins.   I am working on things, so I apologize in
advance for all the people who have to put up with me.