What if tomorrow never comes..

Promise,
Dedication,
Trust,
Faith,
Hope,
What if tomorrow never comes, can these words sustain
me,
Will they tell my story,
Will they explain my actions, my wants, my needs, my
intentions
My life in vain?,
Did I pin everything I have on a hope of a better
tomorrow,
Did I lose the realization of today, for the dream of
tomorrow?
Did I buy my own lie, and forget that tomorrow is for
fools, and dreams
Maybe I am a fool, who dreams,
I need to know what if tomorrow never comes….

Why not Just become a stronger man!?!

Caught an article link on twitter. It’s funny I follow the person who originally post this article because I have a huge crush on smart and powerful women and she is an MIT grad, and fellow technologist so my crush is huge 🙂

I want my lady to have the intellect to put mine in it’s place everyday of the week and twice on Sunday. I would be fine with that because it would always be a constant challenge because as open minded as i am, or at least as I pretend to be my ego is huge and I would defend it with my dieing breath. I love my inner Kanye West and you should love yours too. My inner Kanye keeps me honest because I am going let you finish but only after i have done my research and know more then you do about whatever you are talking about. I hate to be the only one in the room without the answer that means two things

1. I am a jerk.

2. I did the work.

anyway back to my thoughts on the article why would a women have to hide her successes to make her mate feel more like a men or even a positive contributor. That is so much bullshit, why should let you pay because it makes you feel better today, knowing you can’t afford it tomorrow. First of all there are so many ways to contribute in a relationship if you have low dough for some reason i am sure you can find another why to contribute. Equality is a myth in relationships rarely are things equal, it’s more like a rhythm a flow you have to learn to dance too. Make sure you have a good dance partner. A partner that can listen, and speak open and honestly.

where do they make these dudes. You think i would waste my mates valuable time asking her to cater to my ego. It’s my ego and i can cater to it just fine. First if my lady is making more then me, my first thought is what the fuck am i doing. I know for sure I don’t got time to be feeling sensitive about it, I got grinding to do. Listen my huge ego opens me up to all kinds of criticisms but lack of work effort won’t be one of them. I find these sensitive ego-light thugs need hugs, they are all hiding the fact that they need to do better for themselves and using their mates success are an excuse is so wack.

When I pay for my lady’s dinner the only thing i am trying to say to her is I got you baby, i appreciate you and the times she does the same for me I hope she is saying that same, otherwise she can skip it. My ego will be ok, it’s self healing.

Men should be just that Men, and when your game is not working fix your shit, solve the equation and show your work, you will get an easy A, she wants to give you an A, but if you don’t show up for class she has to fail your ass.

-Digital

Thinking…

I have been thinking about the times when we were together and there was no drama

and you would try to open up to me and I may not have gotten what you were trying to say

and i am not sure if it was my ego or my pride that wouldn’t allow me to acknowledge what you were trying to say

but please believe since the day i met you i have always listen to your heart and what i can hear.

I am just a man and I don’t get right all the time, but i try.

When you came into my life you were still a girl, but you grow up and became a women on me, and sometimes even i had to play catch up.

but i never stopped listening and loving you, I have always loved you for you, the good and the bad.

It has taken me a while to understand what that means but I hope that you can forgive me for my short coming and see the simple man that stands before you, the man that loves the real you with all his heart.

I hope you can find that man worth of your precious love.

-Digital

Truth Be Told!!!

The truth is such a funny thing, simple concept in theory. Honesty is the best policy. The reality of the situation is something much, much different. I learned a learned a long time ago that being honest can sometimes get you in serious trouble.

I have always made it a policy to be honest as possible whenever possible. With maturity I figured out that sometimes being honest can be a skill that is tricky to master. Sometimes people don’t want the truth even when they ask for it.

Anyway I guess in a manner of speaking I have not been honest with people lately. I have been curiously quite on my personal feelings as of late.

I have not written much on my move to ATL since I started staying here on a more of a fulltime basis. The move itself went pretty well, the details took awhile to get together but finally started to feel like I was really here, of course now my daughter acts like I am not even here. I guess that was to be expected. I guess things are going pretty well it’s a constant struggle to survive but I am used to that.
Personally things are much different all these changes have left me numb to most everything. I would swear my heart was not beating if I didn’t know better. But I feel a bit overwhelmed by the whole process of trying to get myself together, but together is the last thing I feel.
I have been trying to catch my breath for a year and now that I am finally breathing on my own, my chest hurts. So many issues have been left unresolved and now I have to pay a check that has been gathering interest for a year. Emotionally I am bankrupt.
I have retreated into the safety of my lair, coming out only to get supplies. Spend sometime with my daughter, I really wanted my first days in ATL to be different but I rant the same play and things fell apart, totally predictable. I met someone and the newness of that situation made me feel good but when things fell apart it shined a bright light to the darkness I have been trying to avoid. The darkness enveloped me. Again I feel empty yet again. Then New Years came and reminded me that time is moving on pushing me further and further weather I wanted to go for the ride or not.

I am trying to keep things in perspective, but sometimes perspective is hard to come by.

Well I can go on and on, but I have to run…

On to the Next Ones…

So I caught an eyeful of these jump offs.

The 2010 NBA All Star Air Force Ones I am thinking the red and blues really need my attention but i really like them All, I saw them on HyperBeast Thanks to them for the heads up, The kicks will be avail 1/30 for around 115.00. You can get them from Kinetics a quick google translate will put you on to the info you need.

I am hoping I will have enough paper to cop them earlier so I won’t let them slip by.

Good Will Hunting …

Finally Came up on this joints, took me a minutes I am a new transplant to the ATL, so I was not up on the hot spots to catch kicks that you can’t get at your local footlooker, Thankfully
ATL’s Wish came thru for me. They are pretty close to me so I stopped thru looking for the Air Force 1’s High Hiker They had them but not my size 😦 . But luckily I noticed these joints i was looking for for a minute.

Thanks to wish for my joints I will be running thru there a lot I see.

Xmas kicks

I caught these Nike Flights from Barney’s CO-OP who knew they had hotness like this here …

Disappointment and redemption

So I am in NYC handling business and things were going a little bumpy but I was keeping my head up doing what I can do. I had to run to Harlem and I stopped in the House of Hoops and that’s when it happend redemption for a hard morning. I saw and Immediately copped this super nova hottness…

I can’t wait to killem with these.

I got a hoody and tshirt

The house of hoops is a good retail concept. hottness on demand.

Sweet November

Swag Surfing

it’s that time of year

Swag Surfing
For Him
Kicks

Style Blog

These Shoes Are Studpid Retarded!!!

How did I miss this, I am copping this ASAP!

Lets make it a set!!
Hottness

I am looking for these!!!

for Her
Murder Shoes
For Real B*tches Only
Serial Killer
Hottness